|Unconventional Thoughts of a Human-ish Mind
||[Oct. 8th, 2010|01:59 am]
There is a time where we all must attend school. It is the building blocks of our feeble intelligence as a human species. Without school, letters, numbers or even our language would be meaningless. Though it seems like most things in life, it must come to an end. An end where we reach the pinnacle of what can be taught, and we must then experience life and knowledge on our own. So what may you ask has brought about these unconventional ideals which are obviously observed and incorrect?
Well, these thoughts were brought on by the ideas of intelligence. Intelligence is a funny idea in itself. For how does an individual or populous measure intelligence, what if intelligence is just mere insanity. So the question it comes down to is, are you insane, intelligent, both or neither? What seem to strike a nerve with me are individuals assuming intelligence through high grades. Now I know what you're thinking, how could you dispute intelligence with high test scores? Well my answer to that is testing serves no purpose in intelligence of an individual. Now time travel a bit to the past (in which this travel may contradict to thoughts above). I was in the top 20 in my graduating class based on grades. A few problems with this was, I took a few difficult classes which lowered my grade (low A's) while other individuals in the top 10, took less challenging classes to "improve" their grades. So by grading standards they were more intelligent than me for taking sub-par courses.
That's all beside the point. Throughout High School I put forth a bit of effort to keep my grades, however I never "overly" tried. I never studied for tests, quizzes or exams really. I just went in and took them. Almost 90% of the time I did better than those who studied hours a day. I guess this slightly makes a point, though now let us Time Warp back to the present.
So what brought about all this thinking? A few days ago, a girl was "explaining" to me (more like bragging) about how intelligent she was. (Don't make me laugh) Anyway, she went into detail about how she had high test scores and she was a grade A student. So I told her "Congrats, that's a good story you can tell the other strippers." Mean I know, but life is cruel, deal with it. When someone tries to purposely flaunt their intelligence in your face for bragging purposes, they deserve to be taken down a notch.
MOVE ON WITH IT!
So again what is the point to all this? Spill the beans and quit building drama. Well the point to everything here is essentially me "failing" college due to lack of effort. It's not from unwilling to learn though. It's that I'm sick and tired of being "taught" through text books. I can't take it. I'm paying for classes in which teachers teach a text book. Outside of my major (cause it’s all a money game), taking classes like “Human Genome” or “Renaissance History” there really is no text book, and the teachers actually teach the subject matter. It’s quite interesting to an extent.
College has just been a horrible experience for me. I was originally forced into it, then half way through it, was told by my parents we’ll it’s YOUR choice, only then they scold me telling me I have to finish if I want to amount to anything in life. So at this point I’m stuck. I need about a year to finish, yet I hate every minute of it. It will take me one more year to get a Bachelors Degree in Computer Science, which I’ll probably never use. I originally wanted to learn how to “hack”, become a programmer in which I could manage a website, a server, or a database. Be taught the properties of how applications work, back doors, etc. Though I’ve learned not a single such thing in Computer Science.
Right now I have Computer Architecture. Now you would think we’d learn about the inner makings of a computer. Which is true to some extent, however they break it down way too far for it to be any use. I don’t care how a processor works on the resistor level and AND/OR/XOR Gates in the computer. When will I use that? Why the fuck do I need to know how an ALU works on the inside of a processor, what benefit do I get from that?
I guess at times I feel less than intelligent due to the obscure text book teachings in which I have little to no interest in. I’ve become lazy in school work cause I can’t get myself to pay attention long enough to answer ridiculous questions. The human body on a cellulose level, interesting…the resistor and circuits on a CPU chip, very boring. Don't get me wrong, I still have a strong fascination with computers and technology, and programming...but now what I'm currently being taught. And with that, I feel quite "stupid" seeing my GPA is about a (2.0). Could I achieve a much higher GPA if I tried? Oh absolutely, but I just don't have much try left in me now a days.
If anyone actually takes the time to read the ramblings of an incoherent fox. You deserve a hug. Or + 5 internets for you geeks.